Sunday, October 17
i just thought of smth. if i can just push all my subs up by 5-10 marks (just to be safe, you never know the cut-off).. i can actually go somewhere.. be someone.. and i realised smth.. it really does matter to me. i just want to make me proud of myself for once. next to you people. to be able to stand tall, instead of shirking in the background. just be myself, and be okay with that. no need to be ashamed of me anymore. that's all i want, out of all of this. i want to come back and wear the robe. there, i've said it.
i want to come back and wear that robe-gown-whatever-it-is-thingy. with all of you. imagine that, eh. all 41 of us, with our stars on the wall. do you believe we can do it? i want to believe it, so badly. if i try hard enough, and wish on enough stars, maybe it'll all come true, yeah? i won't be seeing y'all til tues. i guess tomorrow will be a leeeetle bit lonesome? haha. do your english compre, people! we mustmustmust get our a1s. do you believe we can? i want to, so much so that it's a constant ache.
each of us are only angels with one wing, and we can only fly by embracing each other. or something like that. rule no 5 is my favourite: remember us like we will remember you. =D
it must've been love.
8:20 pm
xoxo
